Things I hate.. the wide spectrum of it all

I hate that I can't hide my feelings no matter how hard I try. I hate being emotional, and I really hate not being able to lie well. I hate that I have trust issues. I hate even having the thought that i'm unwillingly part of a game. I hate when I convince myself that something's a good idea, when it proves that it indeed was not. I hate that I can't sleep past 8am. I hate carrots and cauliflower and most vegetables actually. I hate Atlanta traffic. I hate when people are demanding of the little spare time that I have. I hate that I can't keep my car or my apartment clean for longer than 4 days. I hate Barry Bonds. I hate that i'm always tripping over my own feet. I hate clowns. I hate that I shake when i'm angry about something. I hate that i'm far away from someone I have butterflies for...like 9 states far away. I hate the fact that no matter how many times i've seen it, I still cry at the end of Ladder 49. I hate that when all I want to do is go to the beach 2 minutes from my house in Massachusetts, I can't. I hate that my shoulders hurt so bad that I refuse to be touched when I know it can only help me. I hate that I couldn't get home for the second Red Sox world series victory parade. I hate Krystal fast food places. I hate that I don't listen. I hate that i'm stubborn and have to learn things the hard way sometimes. I hate that I couldn't be in Massachusetts for Matt when he needed someone, even if it would be to just sit there and try to hold his hand and make him smile or laugh. I hate when I can't take the pain away when my friends are hurting. I hate when my Dad is in and out of the hospital and I can't be there to help him. I hate knowing that I need to get away and be alone for awhile, and have 4 months left of school anchoring me down here. I hate that I have little patience, and have to rely on the phone or email to let someone know how I feel instead of showing them in person.


I hate when i'm in a mood where all I want to write about are things that I hate.